Request: help finding subreddit where I can feel "special" sexually. 😅

I know it's weird, but I've been single for a really long time and it's getting to me. I don't really feel "special" for lack of a better term. Like, it's easy to go find porn, or I could go on OnlyFans and pay for content, but that's not what I'm getting at. It'd be nice to have something just for me, that feels more like a gift than a product. If that makes any sense. Something only my eyes will see, not hundreds or thousands or even hundreds of thousands of people. Just me. 😮‍💨 Rant over lol