Day 4 and the cravings feel different…

I’ve been extremely peppy and motivated since January 1, but today my craving hit me like a brick wall. I had an unpleasant/uncomfortable social interaction this afternoon with “friends” (really just passing acquaintances) and all I could think was “after all of this I deserve a drink.” A common thought for many of us as we start out, I think.

Three days of success but my pep and motivation have all but vanished after this. I woke up not even thinking about alcohol, and I exercised twice today which gave me huge satisfaction. I planned a healthy dinner and a night of TV and video games for myself…and an hour’s worth of annoyance has made that happiness evaporate.

I will not drink with you today. I know I will push through this, but for the first time this month I will not be happy about it. I’m thinking about the booze I could so easily obtain, and not looking forward at all to anything I’ve planned for myself tonight. How can I get the motivation back?