I resigned and miss my workplace crush

I had my chance and there were many reasons I didn’t take it….I never dated someone I worked with being the top reason. A couple years passed by with the awkward tension always there when we saw one another. So about one year ago now he started dating someone. I was jealous of course but we worked together and I couldn’t see myself dating someone at work. Over these few years though we had conversations that made me fall harder for him. If he isn’t the one for me then he will always be the one who taught me what I want in “the one”. He told me what he wanted in someone and I long to be that someone. No one has ever looked at me the way he did….no one ever made me feel the way he did when he would stare at me. He watched me so much it started giving me anxiety due to the confusion with him seeing someone else. Fast forward and I resigned a few months back. I didn’t see him before I left….i just left. I wanted to say goodbye. I miss him and think about him more than I’d like to admit. I hope someday I will get the chance to see him again. I hope someday he will give me the chance to date him again now that we are no longer coworkers…most of all I hope he understands and doesn’t hold it against me. That’s my crush and I miss him.