it was a nice dream while it lasted

the last words i spoke to you were in an email titled the end- because you constantly played the blocking game with me.

be lovey dovey you’re my wifey one day, you’re in love with s and can’t hurt her the next day without so much as a word from you as warning.

it was exhausting and earth shattering. i poured love and forgiveness every single time you cut me. i wish i could explain why i think of you often and miss you but it’s nonsensical, the love i have for you is unnatural. or perhaps completely natural: the very building blocks of earths existence is that nothing can be created or destroyed so maybe i have always loved you and i can never unlove you.

you’ll never see this here, or if you did you probably would not even care. but i do not have you blocked, i don’t have the stomach for cruelty as you do. if you feel like i do wish you would let me know.

i hope 2025 gives you all you’ve been hoping for…