(F13) I’m like crying right now while typing all of this out. I have become so insecure about how I look that I have started crying myself to sleep and dread going outside and seeing so many beautiful people around me. I honestly just wish I was as beautiful and confident as them. I hate everything about myself especially my face I ruined it by picking at it when I was younger and I also have a  disease called sebopsoriasis acne and blackheads and big pores near the cheek area of my nose and overall just have textured skin and sort of sensitive skin and capillaries also known as spider veins under the cheeks of my eye area and I have like a uneven face. One side of my lips is bigger than the other my eyes are uneven like one is bigger and one is smaller and I have a big nose. My biggest concern is are the holes on my face I’m not sure what they are called but I think they are deep acne marks? I will take a picture and circle them out so you guys can see what I mean. I honestly feel really embarrassed sharing these photos but I just really need help to fix my skin I already went to dermatologists but I feel like they never really listen to my issue and just give a predscription of medicines which do nothing to improve my skin. I had no idea where to post this so I decided to post it on r/skin

How can I improve my skin