Slipped up again after two months of abstinence.

So as the title states, I recently quit phenibut after a year of on and off abuse, and have obviously been slipping up on completely quitting. As much as I would really like to put the stuff down, I start having insane cravings that last through my abstinence. I always keep in mind how horrible the withdrawals are. But always tell myself that I can use it responsibly and end up purchasing more. I’m just curious to hear other people‘s stories on struggling to put this hell of a drug down. I love it and hate it so much.