Slowly losing it.

Day by day I feel myself just losing it, I'm more aggravated. I get random moodwings where everything just feels empty and where I just need to act like I'm not depressed. A permanent facade to be able to keep going is where I think I'm at. I just want things to turn around before I end up falling back into the deep depression I went through for over a decade and I'm not trying anti depressants again especially since I finally managed to get on ADHD meds and I already have to take a daily allergy med on top of that. I just hope I pass this CompTIA test, my mental heavily wanes on this I won't kid myself.

I put NSFW just in case.