How can turn my life around?

I'm 17. My highest grade of education is 6th grade (Dropped out of my own accord). Goals seem impossible to reach. No social skills. No Job. Uncomfortable when I go out in public. Depressed and suicidal (But in afraid of death type of way).

I have passions for things, but when ever I do something with my passions, I end up feeling worse. For example, I tried getting better at 3D animation in blender because I wanted to make my own animations. I tried a daily challenge thing where I would finish a short animation every day. The problem was that I never felt satisfied with what I ended up with, and it felt like a frustrating process to even get to the end. While I was working on it, I could tell it wouldn't look like how I imagined it.

How can I turn my life around? With the way things are currently going, I'm not going to make it far.