God protected me from satan and i still failed Him, i did flash penance was that enough ?

God entered m'y body like a body the same size like you floating in me like me floating in you Hello i was outside for a smoke i took m'y rosary cause i have past expérience with the moon trying to lure me and kill me, anyway its been a week since the moon disapearred and he didn't came again, i was scared its might try to attack me so i took a rosary pray god to sent a angel to help me, guess what a star appeared in that fully dark sky there was only one bright Star and a ...sort of cut in the sky ??? Anyway i thanked god it was an angel at m'y left was a fully dark corner and i heard whispering and noise all around me, the star bright shine more and i was happy god protected me and then the star disapeared i came home and start to masturbate, i failed god im so shameful and sorry i read about flash penance, martyrdom, i start cutting m'y skin, and punching hard m'y other leg, was that enough to be forgive for failing him and falling into satan hand