Planned doing a "hoe phase" but regret it after my first hook up

Hi, I'm F(19) planned to have a hoe phase after my break up.

I really did not want nor planned to have a hoe phase after the breakup pero I did go out with casual dates with some guys I met on instagram. I replied to this one guy (he's on my dms na for a while) then I gave him a chance to meet me last week, casual coffee date lang. The date went well, I like him after that date, he's super funny, tall, he's gwapo rin, respectful, gentleman & he has a car. He wanted to court me, he's very vocal about how he want to be in a serious committed relationship with me but I just brushed it off kasi I didn't think na he was that serious about me but I do like him too. Then, saturday last week, we meet up ulit, in his house naman kasi he wanted to cook for me daw. After we ate, pumunta kami sa kwarto nya (take in mind na alam nya na I don't do hookups and he's very respectful about my boundaries din). We cuddled and sleep lang, he was very sweet sakin, he's looking at me with love while we're cuddling and he's kissing me all over my face until I french kissed him, I did the first move, got on top of him then asked if we can do it, he said na ako daw bahala (something like that) then asked him if he has condoms, tapos he answered he don't have any daw kasi this was not planned naman daw at all (so that means he didn't really plan to do it no? he just wants to cuddle and sleep lang 🥹). We're talking about if we should do it or not, I was hesitant kasi wala ngang condoms and he's very okay about my decisions either way, but we still did it raw, that was one of the best sex I've ever had. After that, he got up and cleaned me first then we cuddled for a bit, he wanted to cook for me ulit before ako ihatid pauwi but it was late na ng onti and I need to go home na, so I insisted na wag na sya mag cook for me. While we're on my way home I asked if ano ba kami, same answer na I always received from him, he wants me to be his girlfriend, but I don't know if he's really serious about me, so I brushed it off nanaman.

I don't know if he's being really serious about me kasi yes he's sweet in person, but through messages he's a bit dry na (he's not like this when we're first started talking) so I'm a bit confused. I don't know what to do so I just returned the same energy back to him. I didn't think he was serious enough to pursue me because he was acting that way na, I'm already attached to him so my solution to that is to hook up with another guy. And I regret it right after we've done it, it was not enjoyable when it was with him, there's no intimacy, pure sex out of lust. After the first round I got up and dressed then umuwi na. I wanted to try having a hoe phase in my early 20s but I think I can't do it.

The reason bakit hindi ko ma seryoso yung first guy na I was talking about here because of his history din, he's a party guy and admits na he had a hoe phase too. My only body count is with my serious long term relationship only, so I overthought na baka he's just messing with me.

I really want to try hookups and casual sex for fun but I think I can't do it talaga, any tips please? 🙏🏻