Mother in law making my life a living nightmare every single day.

I cannot stand this woman. From the day I met her, I have gone above and beyond to try to have a beautiful relationship with her and with my fiancés whole family. I splurged on them at Christmas time, made handmade gifts for his mom, showed up at family events even when my fiance himself didn’t want to be there because I know it was important to his family. This will be a very condensed version of events.

Important backstory - I was a single mom and was diagnosed with cancer years ago and my mental health plummeted; i gave my parents guardianship of my 2 kids (from a previous relationship) because they told me it would make things easier in regards to school / dr appts etc. This led to an extremely messy situation down the road where my parents want to keep the kids and the kids want to stay with them. The judge sides with my parents , telling me that at this point it is in their best interest to stay with my parents. It’s an ongoing situation and one that everyone is aware of and feels awful about it. It’s also more common than people realize.

My MIL constantly brings it up. She’s an alcoholic and will get drunk and bring it up without fail and make me feel horrible about it. It’s my fault for not fighting harder, etc. She has gone on tirades that have ended in me having panic attacks. I tried to confide in SIL (my fiancés brothers wife) and she agreed with me and shared her side of the story. She was also a victim of MIL. My fiancés brothers found out SIL and I talked. They basically told me I was on everybody’s shit list for talking to SIL about their mom and that I shouldn’t talk to her anymore.

My fiance does protect me and defend me. He deleted my contact info from his mom’s phone weeks ago. We have been looking for a place and have a house under contract. She thinks I’m brainwashing him, she constantly asks “what is she doing to you??” She’s angry that he’s moving away to a town that they don’t like to visit. Etc etc. His brother told him that I’ll get my kids back one day and that we’re all just going to be asking him for money. They make me lose my will to live. They make already terrible situations worse.

Anyway she found out that he deleted my contact info off her phone and sent him a barrage of text messages and I just wanted to vent because I am OVER IT.

HOW DARE YOU I AM YOUR MOTHER GIVE ME HER CONTACT INFO. I JUST WANTED TO TELL HER SAFE TRAVELS.

Yall I am just over it.