i hate that i’m so financially irresponsible

Grabe gusto ko lang ilabas to kasi I’m so frustrated with myself. Na-realize ko I’m just so irresponsible and burara sa finances.

It started when I downloaded ulit yung HBO app kasi I wanted to watch the latest White Lotus season. Plano ko sana mag-subscribe ulit for just a month. Laking gulat ko when I signed in tapos my subscription was still on-going pala. I really thought I cancelled it na last year, kasi nakalagay sa App Store ko expired na yung subscription. I only had it for HOTD and Drag Race. Apparently, I subscribed via desktop nun and I forgot.

So napaisip ako if I have other on-going subscriptions na hindi ko nabantayan. Imagine, ngayon ko lang siya naisip after so long? What is wrong with me :( Apparently, on-going yung Prime (which I thought I’d cancelled), Scribd (which I only needed for one document last year), and a video editing platform (which I only needed for a video nung 2023). Jusko talaga. Laking blow ng last one kasi it costs almost 1k per month. 11k down the drain.

Inis na inis ako sa self ko. Hindi ako umutang ever. Hindi ako ever nagsplurge on gadgets. Bihira lang ako magtravel in a year para hindi magastos. Pero bagsak talaga ako sa pagtrack ng finances. Matagal ko na siyang nilalagay sa resolutions ko, hindi natutuloy. Ayun, it bit me in the back today :(

Nawalan tuloy ako ng gana manood ng White Lotus. Fave ko pa naman yun. Hay :(