Scheduled my appointment for March 8th. Looking for some words of comfort

Found out I was pregnant on Saturday and got it confirmed on Monday. My partner & I have decided that abortion is the best decision as we are both low income, young, and at risk of being disowned/in bad graces with our families who we both love (although we disagree). He’s still in college, I just graduated in December and moved across the state to be closer to him and some of my college friends and because there were better job opportunities. I just scheduled a MA for March 8th. I just need some words of encouragement. This isn’t at all how I pictured my first pregnancy going. I’m so sick and I’m so sad. If I had the resources to have the baby, I could. I just can’t do it. I know I’m making the right decision for myself and for my pregnancy, but it’s just not easy. I’m definitely grieving the loss of something that I thought would be so special to me and my partner — something that was supposed to happen years in the future — and I’m just not sure how to deal with it. It doesn’t help that the clinic told me there was going to be protestors outside of the building and I was going to have to be escorted in. I know it’s stupid but I’m dreading hearing them tell me I’m going to hell for something I already feel guilty about. I’m also just scared about the procedure in general. I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. Please, if anyone has any advice on how to deal with this, let me know. I just want someone to tell me that it’s going to be okay — I will grieve, but I will be okay. And that the procedure is not going to hurt and traumatize me too badly. I know a lot of you have had good experiences. I’d like to hear about them. Sorry, I know I rambled.