Unhinged thoughts of cheating

32M, Married - to a docile and vanilla woman. Efforts were plenty initially which led me to think it would improvise, but no surprises there that it only spiralled down after a year of marriage. Have a corporate job, and a connoisseur of knowledge, can hold a conversation and if you happen to glance at me in city, you wouldn’t think otherwise.

I was pretty active before settling down, thinking we would experiment 24/7 and things can only be better from here. But its reached a point where its sexually frustrating and feel like shit for even considering to part ways on basis of sexual life, as thats the only domain where I am unsatisfied.

I used to have FWB, whom I would fuck the shit out of her. She was thick but her pussy and drive was over the roof. Sometimes after Ive had a long day at work, I would just feel like raising hands, making them kneel and pin them to wall only to fuck their mouth. I dont think I need anymore emotional attachment.

I reached out to her again secretly and started talking normally. I hinted her that how she has spoilt me and I dont think anyone could surpass that. She got married too recently and confided that she feels the same. No one fucked her guts out like I did.

Now everytime I get a chance, we just vent it out to each other by saying things that we d do to each other.

This other day, she invited me over and my wife was out for her work. We made out violently and ripped off her clothes. I bend her on bed with her huge ass throwing backwards. I fucked her in doggy and slapped her ass to make it red. She would it when I would say things like - you’re a cumslut bitch, daddys bitch. And only ask me to fuck her harder. She would slurp away my cock after the deed and lick me clean.

This makes me closer to my wife and makes me love her even more. I go back to my wife and make normal missionary boring love, which she cant take it more than 5 mins.