20, need a new friend to help

I'm 20, gay, and I've eaten my cum a few times but I don't do it no where near enough. I don't feel like I should, or need to, or have motivation or I back out etc. I am not really held accountable which I think may be why, for instance, if I decide.no I don't wanna eat it, that's it done with, there's no one else to help. So, I'm might try something new.

If anyone's interested in maybe helping lmk.