I’ve posted here recently..

So just a recap I work in construction, I am a new supervisor and as of November I have been flying solo. And I mean solo. The people who employ me know I am new to this all and when I voiced my concerns about lack of training they told me it was time to “sink or swim” which is fine, expect they’re not happy about sinking and haven’t taken into account the idea of treading water. I feel out of my depth and this is making me spiral, there is no support and I feel stuck. I have said previously that I believe my problem is also society as I don’t feel I should have to do something I don’t enjoy as it’s my life and I don’t understand why I don’t get a bigger say in it. However, I am not someone to pack it in and do nothing, I appreciate the world I’m in requires me to work but I just feel like I should be getting more enjoyment than I am or at least that the perks out way the cons. The other issue I have is I don’t want to let my partner down, we are currently saving to buy a house and if I start looking at other jobs now it adds a level of instability into our lives. But I don’t know what to do, I’m a big guy and I’m nearly brought to tears just because of a job and I really don’t feel like it should be like this.