how i ruined my life and became a depraved slut

this is like a part 2 about me, my kinks and my traumas. in order to dodge reddit’s TOS i’m not going to go into detail here about what happened before i was an adult at all.

home life was always unstable but parents are still married and not diddlers. i have 2 older siblings, we used to stuff together up until they entered HS. i don’t remember what exactly happened in my early years but every adult i knew always treated me like i was hopeless. i’ve been hypersexual for as long as i can remember and i was extremely repressed by my family growing up.

i’ve had 2 boyfriends and only one of those relationships was long term, we were together for 4 years until he broke it off last october. i lost my virginity to him and i already had had kinks i wanted to explore but he wasn’t open to any of them so we didn’t.

when he dumped me i spent about a week and a half just numb and didn’t want to process it because i was sure we’d get back together. i really imagined my future with him and our family together and the thought of never getting to act out my kinks didn’t bother even me.

once i realized he truly didn’t want me, probably wasn’t even attracted to me and had another bitch i crashed out and i’ve been slowly spiraling into my own depravity ever since. from october til now i’ve been with over 30 people.

i’ve gotten assaulted a lot and i like putting myself in bad situations, i was going out every night i could, drinking and doing drugs and letting strangers use me. at the end of 2024 something happened between my brother and i and that ruined my mental health even further, i think that’s when i started getting addicted to porn and really started self destructing again.

this currently is the lowest i’ve ever been. i’m strung out as im writing this cause i haven’t slept in 50h i’ve just been in my room slutting myself out online and masturbating, taking shit to stay up and to calm down and i love it. i like it when guys can tell how broken i am and take advantage of me, i love dominant men that get off on my suffering and think im pathetic.

that’s why i created this account and am sharing my stories. it’s been really fulfilling talking to people with the same kinks or mindset as me, as well as other survivors. my dms are always open and i never judge. 🩵

that’s it for right now~~ happy goonin, freaks