I don't want to forgive.

If my ex SO was on medication, or if my ex SO didn't self medicate with weed, or if my ex SO went to therapy

THEN I'd have some compassion and work on forgiving them

'But you shouldn't of started dating them knowing what you did'

Oh I'm sorry. Was I supposed to not believe what they said. That they were stable and had this huge self discovery.

Isn't the person with said illness the expert on their said illness

I did spend hours and hours researching ANYWAY.

I was so fucking vulnerable. Coming out of ptsd phycosis

They just straight up emotionally abused me for nearly a year.

Fuck them.