Thin does not mean more loveable

I am nearing the end of week 3 on Zepbound (2.5mg), haven’t weighed in but it’s obvious I’ve dropped some pounds. Nothing too dramatic yet but my clothes fit different, my waist is returning, and my face looks slimmer.

The increased attention I’m getting is noticeable and, rather than making me feel good about myself, it is making me deeply sad. Men I pass by acknowledge me and make more eye contact, I am getting compliments daily (wow you look great today…), and just overall having more friendly interactions with strangers or subtle flirting.

I guess it’s confirming some nasty realities I’ve always suspected were true, and revealing some people’s true colors: they will always love me more skinny. I’m pretty sure it’s not just in my head…I really do think people have a tendency to treat thinner people better.

I loved myself even at my heaviest. I just wish I didn’t have to be thin to be valued by everyone else.

Just to be clear, I recognize there’s so much good about this medication and I don’t regret taking it. I’m not ashamed to be taking it either. My blood pressure seems to be back into normal ranges already, I can sit with my legs crossed more comfortably, and I’m way less winded climbing stairs.

Curious if anyone else has been having similar thoughts and what helps you feel better. I don’t want to forget to love the old me just because the world is opening up to the new me. I am the same person, heavy or not.