thinking about guys fucking me when my bf fucks me

i fantasize other guys when my bf fucks me

i’m really kinky and know myself well enough what i like and don’t like. i buy my own toys such as ball gag, dildo, vibrator, choker, nipple clamp, and leash. i also buy lingeries to dress up for him to surprise him after work while dinner and bath is ready and to let him fuck me,,,,but i feel like it’s not reciprocated. i’ve suggested to many times and he’ll do it just once when i communicate it and doesn’t take more initiative. i’m frustrated. my sex drive is so high, i initiate sex 3-4x a day, and we’ll have sex 1-2x a day for 15-30 minutes with no roleplay while i do so much for him. i’m not fulfilled. I LITERALLY MYSELF BUY THOSE THINGS FOR IT TO BE UNUSED.

seeing and hearing guys hit on me makes me fantasize them more than my own boyfriend. when my boyfriend and i have sex or when we masturbate on call i have to fantasize someone else just to cum…

i don’t get it. my pussy is so that that it tore his foreskin twice, i’m soaking wet that he has to wipe me, i have a big nicely shaped ass because i gym and a personal trainer, my tits are 36D and i have the IUD so he can creampie me whenever he wants.

I AM NOT FULFILLED