Hey stranger

Writing to you with the tag strangers , because isn't that just what we are?

Oddly just lying here in bed, contemplating why I even bother with you. I know my heart gets pulled to you but after all these years it's become a bit of a hindrance.

I'm moving on, and not into anothers arms . Which for the first time I've realized just what that means.

I'm not distracting myself, I'm enjoying my own company again and at this stage it's not about competing with who I spend my time with, it's about competing with the time I want to spend with myself.

I want to be with someone who sees me and loves me then I can love them back equally. In order to do that I have to love me just as much if not more.

And after I'm done I don't know if you'll still have the same place in my heart after this..

But I think that's okay.

I think this is the best place to be

So , my dear lovley stranger .. I think it's time to stop distracting ourselves, don't ya think?