I'm feeling very conflicted

I (22F) dating (30M) for about 2 months and known each other for one year. Only conversed till 6 months before it was official. Hanged out almost daily when I could. However for a while I been having low patience from night shift during the weekends throughout us hanging out and me over explaining has caused a lot of frustration as it takes a lot out of me as it is. We met thru a mutual friend group we're in.

Note: he's aware about my IRL situation and mental condition.

I have voiced many times to refrain from over explaining and get straight to the point. Also to reword his questions be it from voice calls or in texts cause to me they all seem like the same questions he already asked before. Which I hate repeating myself since I do have to do it a lot at work. I also have a short attention span n loss of hearing which that also needed to be factored when playing games, watching videos and so forth.

He has no opinions on what to do for the day and honestly I feel like he just does whatever I want to do. Which is fine, but it gets difficult when I don't want to think about choosing or when I actually just want quiet time. There's times where it feels like he's dependent of me when he knows that's not wat I'm looking for in a partner.

Off topic I digress, the issue is that I been calling him gay just for the fun of it and he keeps overreacting like he's thinking too literal when it's the same as me saying chicken/turkey and so on (I say words randomly on a daily basis) But there was a point I asked the question if I were a guy would you date me?

Like the same saying as if I were a worm would you still date me and so forth? ,This was within the 6 months before it was official, he responded I'm only gay for you which made estatic like he actually liked me for me and not my outer appearance.

I did it again (after many times) yesterday Feb 20th, and he over reacted and assumed without even asking me that if I was questioning him being straight. He made very suspicious activities throughout us hanging out with the group which I just wanted to mess with him for instance he would say he's pregnant to some guys baby and another one by acting like the toxic gf to another guy.

He's aware that when I get a reaction I keep going till they stop giving me any reaction. But of course today wasn't any different he says the same thing gay only for you. Which I start reevaluating his answer again and I responded liar cause at that point I realized his reply didn't mean what I believed meant. Which hurt me deep down, as I saw it as a confidence boost within myself and our relationship. I got so hurt that the last response I said don't talk to me.

To me, lying is a very big deal; be it big or small. There's no reason for lies to progress in any relationship and if there are things you didn't mean it, then you shouldn't have said them in the first place. I even told him people in our friend group won't defend him cause he's the troll and most of them were his victims in one way or another. They wanted him to taste his own medicine not harshly but as a funny moment. So him doing jokes that makes him sound gay or homiesexual ( meaning you would basically flirt with your friends more than anyone else) will be used against him all the time. If he didn't wanted to be called gay he shouldn't have made the jokes. I warned him many times before and his responses I just wanted to make everyone laugh. I told him there will always be consequences for the actions you decided to take and this is the consequence for making them without thinking.

Note: I decided to stay back and give each other space (still on going)

Rambling to myself

Today, I'm questioning myself and our compabilty it seems he doesn't understand my humor. I also realized that I didn't care about his feelings were hurt and I hated that he kept apologizing cause it just seemed like he's not really understanding why this situation happened in the first place. We always seem to clash when communicating like we're on 2 different pages. A lot happened for the 2 weeks and he's very understanding.

There are point like

Even right now, I'm annoyed by his existence. It feels like I'm talking to a parrot or a toddler that everything needs to be explained word for word and I have no time to do that. I only have one day off while he has 2 days off. It may be his 1st ever relationship and I appreciate for giving me space when it's needed as my mental and social battery drains quicker than most. However when I was asked the question if I like/love him I couldn't answer it... I feel like It shouldn't have been me being his 1st. Also thinking long term if this doesn't change and this is how the relationship will be I don't want it. I hate that I been cranky, salty, sour all the time as this isn't me at all. If it was me before we made it official yea, I would've said strongly. Right this instant, I can't.. I been repeatedly telling him what makes it easier for the both of us to stay engaged and it's frustrating when it isn't being followed.

Note: I'm not making fun of the sexual orientation. It wasn't meant to be hurtful in anyway. Everyone in the friend group gets called gay and no one reacts like he does as they don't care.