I fear my lack of knowledge gave it to someone else

Hi…

So when I first noticed the bumps I really just thought they were pimples… Nothing more…

So I had sex… Without protection.. (I asked him over text to wear condoms because I stopped my birth control and I didn’t wanna have sex without a condom… they never listen)

I feel so guilty and so so stupid that I gave it to him… but tbh he may have given it to me first… I really have no idea who gave me these herpes… I just know I fooled around with multiple people and was super impulsive for once and this was my fault…

I have a hard time saving no and asking men to wear condoms because 9/10 they say no a guilt trip me…

I feel I gave it to him. And I told him to get tested if he feels any symptoms but of course he went right away and got tested and everything was negative because they don’t test for herpes on regular screenings so I am pretty sure he has it and just is ignoring it….

But I feel guilty… so so guilty.