[F23] Me and my neighbour [M27]

[F23]Me and my neighbour [M27]

Last night I was hanging out with my neighbour, first time we have ever been alone together without the rest of the people in the neighbourhood, he is friends with my sister so that’s how I got to know him, but last night he was locked out of the house and came to look if his family maybe left the key by our house, he doesn’t have a phone so they couldn’t tell him where they left it, so I called my sister to ask his brother where they left the key so they left it at another neighbours house and we went to get it. He was alone at home and asked if I wanted to smoke with him so I said sure and I took about 2 puffs then I was done, he was playing me the music that he made and we were just chilling in the backyard, I then didn’t know what else to say so he asked me why I was quiet all of a sudden so I just said I didn’t have anything to say, he then said I had a lot of say when we all hung out together now the other night, he then came closer to me and started interlocking his fingers with mine and told me he wanted to kiss, but I said no I’ve never done that before. We then went back into the house and he was sitting on the couch and asked me if I really never kissed anyone before, so I said no and then he asked if I wanted to try but I didn’t really want to but he kept asking so I just sat down and started feeling weird, he then kissed me but I just sat there still and tense and I felt nauseated, he then told me to relax and I just couldn’t, I kept telling him it’s weird and I don’t like it but he kept saying I was “getting better” he tried putting his tongue in my mouth and I didn’t like it, he then asked me if I’ve ever been “touched” before so I just looked away and he said “I’ve probably never done a lot of things” then I said no and he kept putting his hand on my thigh and tried moving it higher up my leg but I was moving it away from me so I told him that I should probably go home so he gave me one last kiss on my lips and cheek and was caressing my leg then I got up and he saw me out and while I was walking home I felt disgusted and went home and washed my face and brushed my teeth.

But I don’t understand why I felt so nauseous in the moment but when I got home and I was laying in bed thinking of what happened it made me turned on, why was a so put off during the moment?

So that happened on Friday night, it’s Sunday today and we all hung out again at his house with the rest of the neighbourhood friends, everyone was smoking and drinking and he kept looking at me and licking his lips and I haven’t told anyone what happened and I hope he hasn’t said anything to anyone too because I don’t want people to know that something happened. Between us because that would just make everything awkward, I still can’t stop thinking about what happened. Every time I think about the way he touched my leg then I get wet, and I kinda want to try again because I was such an idiot Friday night and I was so awkward and nervous and didn’t expect anything to happen between us but now that I know what I’m feeling I want to try more things with him.