Lower point in my life, just need to vent

Hello everyone, yesterday was my 26th birthday and the day before I attempted to take my own life. Context to the situation, i am a woman, i live with two other girls and that week was tougher on me to te point that close to midnight i was drowning meds into my system in my room locked down when one of my housemates knocked on the door and asked me to come to the living room. They made me a simple birthday surprise but i was so happy that i cried for like 20 minutes, couldn’t barely speak. On the day of my birthday (next day) we went clubbing and i was very drunk and blurred to them that i almost kms if they weren’t home. This morning they came to my room and said that what i said was way out of touch, that i should have considered Eve (fake name, one of the housemates) feelings, since she also attempted 3 years ago on her birthday and that triggered her. That, and everything that has been going on for a few months into our shared lives made me noticed that i did hit rock bottom. I’ve been having conflicts with both of them, as well as they both have been having conflicts with their respective partners and we all have been a little over the edge. Since i dont date or am in any type of relationship, I usually don’t spend time with other people but them, making them my whole life, i admit that. I also work from home so it has been tough too. I know that i am like a leach, sucking their lives, their interests, their relationships to me, but i am trying really hard not to. I really just want to feel like I’m important to at least one person in my life. In conclusion, they said that they can’t accept what i did and said and i agree with them. That i should have probably spoke to them about it however every time that i tried to share my personal feelings it always comes to a competition, for example: “look at what my dad said to me!” to… “Wow at least your dad speaks to you” (not exactly like that but close to it) so i just… don’t share? Eve also admitted that sometimes she just disagrees with me because she feels like it. I feel small, i act small. Finally, all that to say that they said that they shouldn’t feel like i did what i did because i wanted to get attention from them, wanted them to care for me and said that i need to get help. So I decided to visit my mom for a few weeks. It feels like im taking a step back honestly, I suffered so much in my old town, I don’t want to have to give up on being away from it but I can’t stand the idea of being someone that infringes pain in dear people to me. Also, to clarify, i am on therapy and also am a therapist myself (what an irony, right?) and i also am diagnosed with bipolar personality for three years now. Really just wanted to vent about it, will clarify more about the situation of needed.