Chocolate

Just ate som white chocolate and some spoons of nutella. It was so delicious so unfortunately I had to throw It all away and pour soap over it or I would have binged the whole chocolate bar and a whole nutella jar (like so many other nights). Sometimes eating chocolate is just the best feeling in the whole universe, I love it, and hate that I love it so much.

Last night I ate 4 proteinbars in bed right before I was going to sleep. I had already brushed my teeth and everything. But of course I could not stop there, so I ran to the kitchen and ate another 800 kcal before I finally went to sleep again.

Today I was totally depressed after binging 3 days in a row. Not too many kcal (3k in total each day) but I felt so much stress during the binges and that I lost control and could not stop.

I hate that I have a problem with food. I hate that sometimes there is nothing else in the world I want to do than stuffing myself with chocolate and just feel how good it makes me feel in the moment and how good it tastes.