It's incredible...

Started this journey 7 years ago (u/OwnDressin) and have finally come back. I'm in the first month. And I already am aware of the shifts. In energy and in my mental. Take yesterday. I was doing my taxes (where the last few years I'd wait until the last second) and found out I'm going to owe thousands more than I thought. I laid down and was sad, was gonna dissociate to some mobile game. Got to the title screen, exited out. Sat with the feelings. Let it pass. In the past, that would have been my day. My week would have been the ever present question, "What am I going to do?"

Instead, I got back up of the couch and kept going. There's this checklist system I've implemented which goes swimmingly in channeling this energy.

Today isn't a "what am I going to do?", it's a "how am I going to do it?". That slight perspective shift. I woke up with purpose, like the last few weeks. This drive. This... focus. I'm doing the same type of work but I'm not stressing like I used to. Things roll off my back. They're just things, events, stuff to do. To accomplish. So I just do it. There's no need for anxiety, or at least, excess of.

This is what I've been missing. Nothing has really changed besides this one thing. Gym will be conquered once my back gets back. Food is on the uptick nutritionally. Sleep is still needed.

What I'm saying is, everything is realitively the same in my habits at this point. But my mental. My energy, drive, focus. These are things that are coming back to me. And it feels good. Exciting and calm.

The one thing I will say is that breathing exercises are big. I'm no expert, but I belive I have the diaphragmatic breath that I use to circulate energy from bottom to top. And I use it anytime it becomes apparent to do so.

Wish you luck guys I can't fucking wait to see where this takes me again.