Genuine question for gay Ex Muslims (males)

How did things turn after leaving Islam? Personally, I’ve always knew that I had some sort of attraction towards boys from a young age, and unfortunately I was never able to express my true emotions. Everyone around me had girlfriends, meanwhile, I was desperate for affection. I knew that I can’t come out since I live in a Muslim country & I’d most likely get executed if I do so. So the question is; did you notice any changes regarding your orientation after leaving Islam? Any changes in sexual desire, lust, attraction towards men etc. ? I’m curious about what other gay Exmuslims have to say

And if you have a past of watching pornography, do you feel guilt when watching porn? (Religious guilt)