27 [F4M] #California/Online - LTR Wanted - A Sub/Switch looking for something different, yearning for love and a protector (click on me for something different to read)

You may think that based on the length of my post I wrote out my whole life's story or that I am leaving you nothing to discover about me but surprisingly I didn’t. Below is my reason for being on Reddit, and basic information about what I'm looking for in a relationship. I have also written a little about myself to see if I am what you are looking for. I’ve left out majorly personal things, my loves/likes/dislikes, hobbies, goals, and all the random little things that make me me because I want some things to be just for you to find out about me so you can get to know me personally, slowly, and privately.

When it comes to Reddit I’ve been an observer and never really post anything. So I am aware that short posts are more popular. Most people here seem to be looking for sex as soon as possible and probably don’t have the patience to read long posts, but I tend to do things differently. I am not going to lie, this post took me a while to write out. You could say I put some effort into it (lol). I can’t help but put a lot of thought and dedication into things I am passionate about and take seriously. And I take my heart and the hearts of genuine people very seriously. So if you like reading (like me) my post is perfect for you. If you read ALL of this there is a 97% chance you are my soulmate. Is this a personal, essay, something entertaining for you to read, who knows? So grab a cup of your favorite beverage, put on a movie, TV show, or music in the background or put on nothing at all, and dive right in.

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Hi Reader,

The ironic thing about me is when I scroll through Reddit personals, I often think WHY on earth are we all here searching for love and deep connections??? I know why people are here when they are strictly looking for sex, that is more self-explanatory. But to come here when searching for a deep and meaningful connection, why are we here???

After giving it some thought I discovered why I'm here looking for the person I’ve been waiting for my whole life. I like the openness, honesty, and choice of anonymity. I’ve never tried any dating apps but I have family members and friends that have and although dating apps are most likely much safer and more predictable and practical than Reddit and you know who you are talking to, they seem like more pressure to be perfect and vanilla (aka wear a mask). You can’t be open on dating apps. One because it's mainly vanilla relationships and two because if you did decide to express your kinks on your profile, someone you went to high school with could pop up and see your profile and that would be awkward (at least for me). I see more authentic vulnerability on Reddit posts than I’ve heard people describe when they tell me about their dating app experience. Reddit gives the space to shamelessly talk about your private wants and desires without judgment. Creating a higher chance to find someone like-minded. But I would be lying if I said I wasn't a bit anxious posting here. Because I know CRAZY people are on here. So if I seem a bit nervous at the start that is one of the reasons.

So there is no surprise I am going to tell you right off the bat that I am a virgin. I have never done ANYTHING sexual or intimate with a guy, including kissing. I’ve been living life like a nun. No, it is not because I am unattractive, have a low sex drive, have an illness, or have never received any offers. I have multiple reasons as to why I have yet to do anything sexual with anyone which I have no problem sharing with the person I am building a connection with. I will share that I grew up believing in sex after marriage. Could I still wait? Yes but, it is not a rule for me. I’m not going to lie, choosing not to have sex has been hard. One because it’s NOT favored in the modern dating scene, and two because I do have a high sex drive. However, abstaining from something I crave has given me great self-discipline. I have no regrets about saving myself, I think saving myself for someone who values, loves, and respects me and for whom I value love and respect is worth it. I love that I will be giving them a part of me that no one has ever had, touched, or seen. 

Finding real love on Reddit does sound a bit crazy, but the truth is crazier things have happened and honestly, you never know where you'll find your person.

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What I'm looking for in Love:

I am looking for a genuine connection. I want a relationship first and a dynamic second. I genuinely want someone who is my best friend. I don’t want someone to “grow old with” I want someone to stay young with. I want to be each other's biggest supporter, I want to be your favorite person, and I want you to be mine. If we can make each other laugh, my heart is YOURS. I want a partner in crime outside of the bedroom. I want a relationship filled with peace and a deep sense of belonging. I want to dance with you to our favorite songs, I love wearing dresses but I will want to wear your clothes with your scent tangled in them. I want you to buy me the lingerie you want to see me in. I want to sit on your lap, run my fingers through your hair, and slowly kiss your jaw and neck teasingly. I want us to get so swept up in each other when we are together that we forget the world around us, I want us to be so zoned into each other we can hear each other's breathing change with every touch. I want eye contact that gives each other butterflies. I want to tell you what perfume I wear so you can put it on our pillow on nights when you miss me.

I want to be your safe space and for you to be mine.

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My Vanilla Side:

Looking at me most people assume I’m a normal vanilla nice girl without a dark side. I love dressing very feminine and I am often told I have a warm personality. Apparently "I look like someone who you would want your grandparents to meet", which is accurate because older people tend to like me. I'm well-spoken and well-mannered. I am good at socializing and I like that people find me charming and sweet. I enjoy talking with people, but I can get overwhelmed at times and I definitely have a social battery. I have goals and dreams. I have hobbies that I love and am passionate about. I have lived a very sheltered life, which is why I think I am constantly told that I have youthfulness and softness about me. I also have a bit of a baby face so people often think I’m a teenager but I AM NOT!!! A perfect life from start to present is very rare for most and I’ve overcome a lot. I can talk to and have compassion for people from all walks of life but I have a soft spot for the misfits and the black sheep because I relate to them a bit more.

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Non - Vanilla Side:

Every relationship needs a stable foundation of trust but even more so when you and your partner have a non-vanilla relationship. The amount of vulnerability and trust that is given can not be taken lightly or handled blindly.

Being submissive is very natural for me, I've dreamed about being someone's little princess. I love dominant men who love taking the lead and want to have someone to take care of and protect. I want someone who enjoys and wants to open doors for me, buckles my seat belt, holds my hand or the back of my neck when we walk outside, cooks for me, teaches me things, and is extremely protective. These things would make me feel very safe and cared for. I have a weakness for tall men (I know, I know I’m sorry. I have a size difference kink.). I'll have a weakness for a tall man who towers over me and looks like my bodyguard. It does something to my brain. I also would love to be in a DD/lg relationship with someone who genuinely loves being a DD. I'm not really a brat in everyday life but I would love to indulge(roleplay) being one to provoke a DD into being rough with me.

If you want free rein over my body? Deserve me. If you want to own me? Earn me. If you want my loyalty? I want yours too. If you want to do twisted things to me? If you want to use me as an outlet for your rage, then prove that I can TRUST you. If you want to possess me, then I get to possess you too.

With the right guy who wants me to be dominant with him, I would love to step into the role. Because of my personality and the fact that I’m a virgin most men probably wouldn’t think I could rise to the occasion. I will admit that being dominant is an energy that is a bit foreign to me but I have urges to explore. The thought of making someone beg or whimper turns me on. I would love to see my man kneel and treat men like a goddess. I have submissive energy but being a caring person I love the idea of creating a safe space for masculine man to take their armor off and be submissive.

I connect to the kind of relationship where we have the freedom to indulge in whatever we desire and need, as long as we respect each other's limits and boundaries.

I want mutual worshiping of each other. 

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Kink List:

One could say that my kink list is hearsay because as I’ve mentioned I have never indulged in anything sexual before, but this is a list of just a few things that turn me on and give butterflies…

A few Sexual and Non-Sexual turn-ons: Size Difference, Race Difference, Spankings, Edging, Praise, Manhandling, Choking, Slapping, Light Bimbofication, Dumbification, CNC, Roleplay (I have quite a few taboo fantasies), Dd/lg… etc.

A few Limits: scat, piss, blood, extreme pain (spankings not include), anything illegal… etc.

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Relationship Status: Single

Eyes: Brown

Skin: Brown

Body: Slim

Height: 5’5”

Free of Disease

I’ve never done drugs or smoked

I very rarely drink (I don’t care if you do or don’t)

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What I’m looking for (not all of these are essential)

LOYAL, Thoughtful, Romantic, Funny and Compassionate

Between the ages of 27-35 (changeable)

Soft Dom or Switch (i need someone who can be both dominate but also tender and caring)

Passionate, Ambitious, Stable, and Goal Oriented

Loves traveling, the outdoors, sports, fitness, fine dining, music and cooking

Tall (bodyguard)

True Gentlemen

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I am not desperate or in a rush, I want a genuine connection and to build something meaningful and real. 

If you are not from California still PM me.

If anything I’ve said has piqued your interest and you feel we will align well with each other, send me any color heart emoji (so I know you read ALL this), and I’ll go to your page and read your post. A picture of yourself is very much welcome but not demanded, I know sending pictures can be nerve-racking. But, I am not one to pretend that attraction is not important, so pictures are important. Also not knowing who you are talking to can be VERY weird. If you're more comfortable sending a faceless picture first, that’s fine. I’ll follow with what you are comfortable with. DO NOT SEND ME ANY D*CK PICS!!!

My only rule while we get to know each other is PRIVICTY and DISCRETION. What is talked about and shared between us STAYS between us.

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Well, that’s all folks. If you took the time to read ALL of this, thank you. I hope we are who each other has been searching and waiting for. If I am not who you are looking for and you still read all of this I genuinely wish you the very best of luck in your search. Much love, xoxo

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Love Note: Normal is boring. I don’t want a mediocre relationship. I want complete obsession and devotion to each other. I want to merge souls with you.