Too much time alone

I was born an only child to parents who didn't want one. They kept me in the house except for school. Wasn't allowed friends or activities. Pulled me out of school in the 7th grade. Parents divorced. Lived with my dad until the government check ran out when I was 18, then went to my mother & her husband. Worked a couple jobs, made & lost a few friends. Mother's husband, drunk, throw me out, moved back with my dad in a new place. He was stealing the money, I asked him about it & he pointed a gun at me so I left. He killed himself a week later. No one on either side of the family said anything to me again until ten years later after I went looking for them on the internet and they just blocked me. Moved back with my mom, & spent time with a couple of friends here and there, until 23 started college, which was a scam. Got a couple more jobs, went to a real college. Friends only cared about alcohol, dope. Girls, women I met were not real gf material. They treat everything like a joke, or it's disposable. One or two I wanted something with wanted nothing to do with me. One I was with longest, 5+ years, liar, slut, found a guy who put a crack pipe in her mouth and took off. This was after a drunk driver wrecked our car, cost me jobs, therefore apt, ect. Had to move back in with mom at 30. Her & him so drunk & stoned they saw it as I never left. They sold their house after the 2008 bubble & weren't lettin anyone move with them. I wasn't in a position to afford myself, so I ended up on the street. Got arrested a dozen times for trespassing, food from corporate stores. Everywhere I went for work no one spoke English, South Florida. Mom invited me back for somewhere to stay, but her mom, my grandma, was old & sick with dementia, & her husband just wanted the inheritance so they had the cops throw me out so they could poison her, spend the money on lottery tickets that didn't win. I moved out to Iowa, North Carolina with no luck. Criminal record & no one interested in hiring. No luck with women in 15+ years. No one gives a damn anyway, let alone a 40something guy with nothing to his name. So, and of course there's a lot of detail missing, but that's an accurate jist. I can say in hindsight I could've done things different but that's everybody.

Now, I don't look young, hair in the wrong places, dentures from being raised on candy and soda. Which led me to being overweight as a child and ruined my skin for life even after I lost the weight. So, basically, fuck everybody. This American society only respects money, athletes, hate.