Can't sleep, feel unsafe at home.

I moved in a house after moving out of a terrible building where the upstairs neighbors would be up all night, smack things on purpose, abuse their dog and using violence, to the point I was unable to sleep and eventually threatened them and got arrested ( worst experience ever).

In this household, again, me being me, I try to be considerate, don't even listen to music or watch TV to avoid the possibility of being retaliated at night.

The thing is, I had a serious cold when I moved in and I coughed a lot. Suddenly people in other buildings (which are long, short building facing other another building in one side and a line of houses at the next. Also the majority here are religious and they usually alienate themselves from people who are not alike.

I am afraid to cough, but this causes me to wheeze, which I believe I hearable too (although I completely shut down the entire house).

I'd go to sleep at my mom's but I can't everyday.

I don't even mention these people mimicking me because at this point my opinion amounts to that of a mentally ill person, and everything ends up in "get more intense help".

I've been going to therapy lately, and it has helped in a way I couldn't foresee. I stopped failing and ruminating about b.sc math exams, and I got a related job in this field, and lastly and unexpectedly I socialized and invited two waiters to sit and smoke, even though I wasn't the most sociableduring that, it's progress.

But all of a sudden, this thing is rubbing me of my life, and pushes my through the hand of my family to get hospitalized instead of finally finishing this never ending degree, make a landmark in this new area which I just got a chance to explore, and just be forced to lift myself up again. I don't want to go e up this semester and what for another half a year, but maybe, for the sake of my job, I should?

I feel alone, and bad. I feel like a burden.

I feel like I did something wrong, that no matter how I manage to struggle, and face it all, another thing is added to totally make me despondent.

I can't sleep every night with binaural beats or other music in full volume, just to not hear others.

I am tired...