Cocaine rebound

I wouldn’t consider myself an addict. I only do coke once or twice a month, if that. But honestly the reason I go a month between is because the rebound phase is detrimental for me and seems to get worst each time I participate. Once I come down, the following 3-5 days are pure hell for me. I’m an emotional wreck, I want to kill myself, I cry at literally everything. I can’t hold it together, everything sets me off. I have like no control over myself. For this reason, I space my usage out pretty substantially. I guess my question is, does anyone have any suggestions to help the rebound phase? My partner doesn’t suffer with this. He’s literally completely fine and normal after he partakes while I feel like I’m fighting for my life. Any thoughts?

I’m currently going through this phase right now. I hate it