3 years in and already getting cold feet about my marriage

Problem/Goal: I don’t like being a wife. I’m scared that I’ve made the biggest mistake of my life. My husband likes the traditional husband-wife set-up and I don’t know if that fully aligns with what I wanted. I know I should have a conversation with him, but I don’t know how to approach him with this and I just wanted to see if the feeling might go away or this is really it :(

Context: It’s been almost three years since I got married. I was 24, and my husband (then boyfriend) was 25.

He’s Canadian, and I’m Filipina, born in PH and raised in Canada. I met him after being in a toxic relationship for three years. Initially, he was just a rebound, but he turned out to be a breath of fresh air—a green flag. He was exactly what I needed at that time. With him, everything just fell into place. If you know the song “You Got It All” by The Jets, that’s exactly how I felt about him.

(Just a quick background about me: I was a product of my mom’s infidelity and she already has a family when she had me, I didn’t exactly grow up in a nurturing environment cause she’s a narcissist and dad’s an absent parent lol so I moved out when I was 17)

The pandemic was around the corner, so we started living together after two months. During those two years, we didn’t have any issues. We even got a dog. We were just in our bubble. It was easy.

In 2022, he got an offer to work for his dream company in Doha, so we decided to get married just in case, so he could bring me along. Although I ended up staying behind because I was in law school and wanted to finish my degree. We did long distance because we were both chasing our dreams. We agreed that it was a small sacrifice for the future we were building. We’d take turns visiting each other, but it wasn’t the same… until I realized that I was growing apart from him. I became a lawyer and discovered so much about myself.

His contract ended last year, and he came home in December. I’ve been in “wife mode” ever since, but I don’t feel like myself. I don’t like being a wife :( I don’t like admitting this, but I like it better when we were doing long distance. I feel trapped. I want out. Like, is this it? Is this my life now? Am I wrong for marrying at 24?

PS. Oh, and I might be pregnant 🥲