How do I deal with bad curiosity and having these bad books

Hello! I am from a religious family and my family can also feel entities or have a sense of when someone has an unwelcome visitor or aura. So recently, I've got an insight of the left-side, like, I dunno what came over me but my curiosity got the better of me by looking at the "lemegeton clavicula salomonis" (Note: I have not read the book nor in possession but I have books that is in line with those like devilish gospel). Then as soon as I ordered a book about a devilish gospel, something came over me that I should stop. Therefore, right now, I'm feeling guilt of having ordering these books despite they're on the way via delivery. And for my family feeling entities, I don't want to harm them with my own fault. I was thinking that as soon as the books are delivered, I will dispose them, Then ask my local priest during this week. I'm really lost right now, kinda freaking out too on how did I do this or what came over me. This guilty feeling is really eating me up. I need guidance and to repent.