The taste no longer exists

Hi everyone, a little quick context: I am a 29 year old (MtF). Since I was little, I have had a deep hatred and disgust for this world. Between my agoraphobia, anorexia, suicidal crises and not feeling good outside, life was super shit.

I spend my days wanting to die, I only feel good when I'm in a small room, behind my PC playing.

Life is a succession of horror, judgment, disgust.

Has anyone ever had these symptoms at the same time: Hyporexia (Being disgusted by food, only eating in an emergency), Agoraphobia and even fear of being outside in general?

Thanks for reading, 29 years is 29 too many..