I’ve had enough. Feel like ending it now.

My mrs and The mother of my child who is my FP has given up on me and ended the relationship because of my drug addiction and I understand her choice. It’s all my own fault I know that. I don’t want to be like this. I fucking hate what I’ve become. Absolute embarrassment of a man and dad. I deserve this. I love my kids so much but I genuinely believe they will be better off without me. I’ve had enough of this pain I’m causing everyone. Fuck this