Was proactive about getting surgery and got a surgery even tho I got health OCD!

Im honestly beyond proud of myself and think this was a huge checkpoint of growth. I had to get a growth(its benign but it was big enough for surgery) of my uterus and I managed to get myself trough all the testing, research, telling family, and finally admission in the hospital and surgery and recovery with only a few panic attacks, only took one half a xanax one time. I am someone with a full blown panic disorder as a complication of untreated health and sensory OCD- my whole life I had a wholeee mental breakdown around bodily things, for example a bad finger cut would send me in a spiral about sepsis, amputation etc. Im the type to send myself to a panic attack just googling diseases I dont even have a reason to think I have. I also have this sensory health eff up thing, for example when I get bronchitis, I had it before so I dont think Im dying or have those fears of consequences, but I still spiral about the hard breathing itself and just the sensation and the fact that theres smth up with my body. Considering that, where did I find the strength to face a real abdominal surgery with total anestesia that has real risks such as trombosis or infections, I dont even know. I know I sound like a drama queen but I know ppl who have battled health anxiety know exactly what Im talking about. I bravely faced thing like a cateter and relearning to walk after abdominal muscles were opened as someone who used to freak out about anyyyyy little bodily thing. I feel so wise and grown rn 😄