I am curious...

Alright, I'm not ex jw cus I never baptized before but I know them since I was a teen and I did bible study tho but I dont feel anything like all I wanted is to avoid myself from them and even now I just started going meeting like 2 weeks and all I see is NPC in the kingdom hall saying the same things and it wasn't like before some are dissapeared some are here. Some elders are not elders anymore and almots this whole kingdom hall felt messed up man. Seriously should I even continue or just leave and learn standard moral because they add too many rules and yes I understand but seriously my family even lost the love. The relationship worse than before man...