Is there anyone else who has no close friends in their life?

Hi, I’m in a very weird position in my social life rn. I’ve lost contact and rarely talk to my school friends, who I genuinely miss. And I’ve grown to hate my college friends because of how they’ve treated me (won’t go into detail)

I basically feel like I don’t have a single close friend in my life rn. If I had to share a happy or bad news there’s no one that comes right into my head at that moment. All the friends I have, have best friends of their own, and they too wouldn’t ever choose me as a first priority for anything.

I’ve been blessed with loving parents so that really helps me, I’ve never felt a lack of love simply because of them. However these days I also crave love from others, I’m not even cribbing for a girlfriend or anything, I just need a friend who’s affectionate about me and I can talk to without any filters

Is anyone else out here in or ever been in this situation? Basically I don’t have friends nu sollalam. Oru tea kudika polaamnu nenachalum thaniya dhan ponum. I think my mental health is deteriorating as a result of this