Is it normal to feel Nothing?

I've recently learned that i have"CPTSD" and i've been looking into it and how past trauma is effecting me, i read that crying over those experiences might make you heal but the thing is it doesn't make me feel anything remembering them, i can visualize many events and i feel nothing as i watch what happened and i feel no emotions, i keep replaying many memories but i feel nothing.

i thought that my traumatic experiences weren't bad enough and that's why i don't get feelings remembering them but when i tried to picture a family member in my shoes i simply couldn't, my stomach started to hurt, and my eyes roll back instinctively as to stop block myself from seeing the imagination and i immediatly felt so much guilt for imagining such a horrible thing for someone.

is it normal to feel nothing like this?