My father is very toxic and I can't move out also. It's affecting me. What to do?

My father is very toxic, selfish, narcissist and sexist. He always demotivates me, always judges me on my small actions, breaks his biggest of promises, doesn't talks to me properly.

He shouts like animals whenever he wants, it makes me feel so bad. He tortured me mentally alot in my childhood He tried to make me hate my mom and grandpa by telling lies.

He many times physically assaulted my mom and me He tortured both of us alot when he was young. He's an advocate and he made me an advocate also. How do I escape him. I can't love without him.

He even left my mom and me alone in another city and lived in another city (for work) for 20 years.

Now he called us back only because he had no one left to make roti. His servant also got married so he lives seperate now. He's very selfish , he only uses us as emotional dumpster.

In front of his mother and brothers he acts like a gentleman and infront of my and my mom he shows his real face.