Why it’s so hard for someone to wait for me ?

Why is it so easy for you all to leave her behind ? Can’t you see how much you mean to her ? Can’t see how close you are to her ? It’s not easy for her let go of anyone she waits for years until they return she never gives she doesn’t want you to go to bed with a bad mood or she doesn’t want to keep you waiting no matter what she doesn’t want to do anything that would hurt you she always want to be loved fully by you . Why it’s so hard to wait for her ? Isn’t she worthy? No matter which guy it is , no one ever asks her to stay or they don’t want her to leave them . I’m very replacable aren’t I ?

Note : I didn’t have break up but it’s just that every time I fight with my partner ( my 2nd love ) he just ignores me and feel fine about it and I’m always worrying wondering I never kept him waiting I feel bad doing that to anyone who means smtg to me why don’t feel the same thing about me ?? They call me immature unworthy for ‘tis am I ? I’m 20