Just A Little Rant About Being Behind

It was a rainy Saturday when my partner and I found out that we had the flu. Well...they had the flu, but by the laws of proximity, we both knew it was only a matter of time before I started to feel the symptoms.

Panic was instant.

To frame the situation, this semester has been difficult. I'm still burnt out from last semester. And something about Property and Contracts just isn't clicking the way that Torts and Crim did. I've failed every quiz we've had, I'm finding out that I potentially failed one of my midterms, and despite all my best efforts, I cannot seem to understand the material.

The flu was not in my plan. The flu could not be in my plan.

However, the flu does not care.

I was out of school for a week and half despite my best efforts to expedite my recovery. I told myself this happening right before spring break was the best case scenario. That I could buckle down over break and get caught up and maybe even ahead. However, I have spent break waking up late, and staying up crocheting and being with friends. And the guilt is so real, but I just don't have it in me to process 100 pages of Conlaw, 92 pages of Property and 73 pages of Contracts. We also have a project for Legal Research and Writing due the end of next week, for which I have done nothing.

I guess I'm looking for solutions to burn out. Inspiration - besides the panic over potentially losing my scholarship that has made its home in my heart - to get to work. Or just words of encouragement telling me it is okay to chill out and that I am using this time wisely to rest and maybe do better in the second half of this semester.

Best,

A 1L With Imposter Syndrome Who Just Wants a Nap