Ngl, I don’t know if I can get another dog (good reason)

The current dogs I have I love so goddamn much. Tbh I do think they are my “kids” and i genuinely love/feel more attached to them than my family. My wife feels the same way (we love each other the “most” of course but it’s not like the dogs we love are miles behind). Before any assumptions are made, I’m a dude who’s more stereotypically “masculine”. I’m ex Army, ex powerlifter, trained Muay Thai and training wrestling/BJJ the past 5+ years. I say this because most ppl I tell assume I don’t have any real emotional attachment for some reason.

But these dogs I have I just look at and I feel overwhelmed with love and happiness. When I see them run around my yard, I’m legitimately so happy. When something possibly bad happens to them, I stress out incredibly hard and take it harder than the dogs themselves. Which brings me to my point: I almost cry thinking about the horrid day that comes around and I don’t think I could handle that devastation well. I really don’t think I could do it twice. I’ve experienced death enough times, but my dogs I just feel would kill me.