Rape my mouth

I’m 19F, 5ft, a feminist, and I have the worst oral fixation. At night when I’m lying in bed I have thoughts of guys overpowering me and destroying my lipglossed mouth. Not even just to get themselves off, but to watch me struggle to take it and leave my face a mess. Completely breaking me down and degrading me. Trying to strip me of my feminism. Do guys have these thoughts the other way around? How does something like this even happen?