Getting better, motivation getting harder

I'm taking my lexapro every day, I'm doing well at work, I'm starting to get a better handle on household chores, I'm eating better, and I'm even getting more engaged with my community.

I KNOW I'm doing better. But I...don't FEEL like I'm doing better. I still feel like I'm dragging myself AWAY from my old life that was bad for me, not TOWARDS a new and better life that's good for me. I don't feel miserable, like...I'm not DROWNING. But I feel like I'm doing all this work to just stay afloat, nothing more.