Had an episode and didn’t realize until after

I just went though 13 days of hypo mania. Applied into college for the 7th time but I want to do it idk. Applied to jobs and really truly thought this was me and my meds were working. Spent 1,000 and went on a impromptu birthday trip

Last two days i’ve cried and just started feeling so blah only to realize I was hypo through all the time I thought my meds are working.

Now i’m even more depressed and genuinely sad I didn’t catch it. I guess i’m just disappointed

I’m coming to terms my meds will help ease the highs and lows but they will still happen and I guess I need to be more watchful. I hate this