I need help I think I’m autistic

I've been trying to figure out whether I'm on the autism spectrum, but finding a professional who actually understands autism in adults has been incredibly frustrating-especially in my country. After relating a lot to the experiences of autistic people, I took the AQ-50 test (scored 36) and the RAADS-R test (scored 139), both of which suggest a strong likelihood of autism. But when I tried getting evaluated, I was dismissed almost immediately. One therapist told me I was "too smart" to be autistic, while another said that if I really had autism, I wouldn't be able to live normally or take care of myself. They also claimed that adults can't be diagnosed because I "would have known by now." The problem is, I have struggled my whole life-with feeling like I don't belong, like I don't truly understand people beyond a logical level, and like I'm constantly disconnected. This has been one of the biggest factors in my depression. But instead of helping, every professional l've seen in my country seems to follow the same outdated beliefs about autism, and there are no real resources for adults like me. I'm reaching out because I don't know where else to turn. I just want an honest, competent evaluation from someone who understands autism in adults. If you have any guidance or resources that could help, I'd really appreciate it.