Just another sad fool

I'm so self aware,I'm aware on how selfish I am for having these thoughts. There's people with real struggles people with jobs,single mothers working two jobs to take care of her kids. And here I am with no job complaining about what?

This isolation I feel is apart of a global problem.

Five years ago when I was fifteen I got taken away from my momma,police came took me to a children's home,made my momma cry that day. And since then I just want to fix that and make her proud. Yet I just have no idea how to I'm no good. I'm 20 years old dropped out at 15 I have no job can't even drive a car I've done nothing with myself.

Been in and out of mental hospitals trying to find help,but nothing. I'm to lost in my head,to many addictions to things I know are unhealthy and are killing me slowly.

So many contradictions with having anxiety and depression at the same time. Wanting to be someone anxiety teels me to get out of bed go do something or you'll never be someone. Then depression tells me to just stay in bed and that you'll never be anyone.

The light just never comes.