I just want to kms.

I’m an almost a 16 year old girl who has never been happy. I’ve always felt misunderstood and lonely and I honestly don’t know why to do anymore. Last year I committed suicide but obviously it didn’t work. I was then sent to a like a psych ward and now almost a year later I’ve not been better. I’ve pretended to be better to get out of there and my poor parents are always worried but they don’t know that I’m better worse everyday. I know I should keep going for them but I really don’t care anymore. I don’t wanna talk to anyone. I don’t wanna get better. I’ve been to multiple different therapists and it’s all been the same. I can’t do it anymore please just let me sleep and don’t wake up. Please tell me. What’s the easiest way to commit? I don’t have access to a gun or a bunch of pills. I’m to scared to jump off something. There is much more to the story but I don’t wanna go into it. Also sorry for my grammar my first language isn’t English.